I have been playing with my emotion these last few days. I admit that I am an emotional person and when my emotion is attached, I start becoming the annoying me.. I feel I become more selfish and easily angered and annoyed I guess.. I have been struggling with these and been praying for my weakness for a while. I realized that it's not easy one.
Last nite there is one thing bothered me so much that I could not handle my emotion any longer. I cried all night and feels hopeless and sad because I am beaten down by my sadness and jealousy. I cried till I felt asleep and hoping that a new day brings new hope tomorrow. But this morning when I woke up.. I faced another emotional trial. And in this new day, I started my day with uneasy heart. I felt bad and uneasy till God reminded me through His words.
"A joyful heart makes a cheerful face, but when heart is sad the spirit is broken (Proverbs 15:13), [therefore] above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" (Proverbs 4:23)
I was in tears as I read this passage on my way to work.. I feel blessed...
I realized that too many times, I let my emotions control my heart and my attitude.. Yet, I am reminded that I need to control and guard my heart to control my emotions and my attitude since it it the source of my life.. I pray my The love of God will always be contented in my heart so I may always have a joyful heart and make a cheerful face...