Set Your Thoughts on Things Above

I could say that GOD is amazingly amazing.. yes.. He is super cool. He knows my needs..

Since for good last year, I have been struggling with my faith..

Suddenly, I lost my "comfort zone" sisters for 4.5 years..

Yes, I would say they are my comfort zone sisters. why?

Because, I have been with them for 4.5 years, growing in faith, learning God's words, supporting each other, praying for each other for that long.

I felt like I have a strong wall who will always support my back so I will not fall...

I feel comfortable talking all my doubts, my problems, my issues, my thoughts, everything that happens in my life: good or bad, to them. They were like my 2nd family..

When I was back home, I felt like I am losing them. I could say that I am back to square one..

I am not comfortable talking and sharing my thoughts and feelings..

I am afraid they will judge me based on that.. they will not understand my needs..

they will this and that.. so many thoughts going on...

It makes me lonely and stressed... I miss my sisters..

well... I emailed them, shared my situation... and I surely know they are praying for me..

but still I miss their presence.. their smile.. their hugs.. their laughter...

I pray to God that God will help me.. I pray and pray and pray...

I know God will always be there for me and He knows my needs... but I feel nothing..

Until one point, God rebuked me..

He said, "If you depend on your sisters, then You will not find Me. You have to be wholeheartedly depend on Me to find Me."

At that moment, I cried and realized these times I just put God as my backup.. I know God is there.. I know God is listened but my heart was not there.. My heart was sunk in my problems..

I am so thankful that I have family that is faithful to God.. not only my mom and dad but also my cousins, my uncles and aunties are God's people. God uses them to see Him more.. That God is more than just a backup.. He is the FIRST and ONLY one who knows you and loves you..

Don't depend on people cause they will disappoint you.. but depend on HIM as He is the Truth..

Now, in my aloneness in Singapore.. I could say that God is my one and only comforter..

Even just before I am down, each and new day He provides me with His promises..

Like today He reminds me to set my thoughts on things above..

The way I live is influenced by my thoughts.. So if I concentrate on unholy and ungodliness thoughts, those things will dominate my life. Instead, fill your mind with thoughts of Christ, so you will become Christlike. What you fill your mind with is a matter of choice. Choose to concentrate on the magnificent truths of God, and they will create in you a noble character that brings glory to God.

I hope that every single day, I will set my mind with thoughts of Christ.. Let's do it!!!!!!

Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy--meditate on these things.

(Philippians 4:8)