every year I am really excited when it reaches end of July because August is coming.. however, last few weeks i have been busy with lots of things.. preparations.. school... relatives visitation.. till i felt so tired and exhausted every single days.. i felt that i don't have a moment alone for myself.. and even for God.. i pray quickly before and after wake up.. i am too busy with my daily schedule and myself.. then the satan works well in me when i'm busy =( i become ignorant, selfish, easily angered, easily annoyed, etc etc.. so when problems come, I am just defeated.. I am down.. instantly down and sinked...
then i cried.. i cried and cried and cried till i hear God's voice saying, "kneel down my dear and pray out loud." at first I ignored it and keep craying.. but those voice kept coming.. so I kneel down and pray out loud (with crying of course) and immediately my heart at ease.. i feel "plong" =) and i felt comforted by His presence.. I knew my problems are still there.. but I knew I am not alone and God with me... Amazingly, I could sleep well that night (usually with lots tensions and problems, I could not sleep) and wake up with fresh mind..
I knew I have to let those go.. let all my problems.. my burdens.. my issues.. lift them to God's hands.. and Let God in to my daily life.. struggle with God, deliberate with God and decide with God according to His will.. I am glad that I still have Him in my life and I am blessed to be His beloved.. Now, after I lift those in God's hands.. it is my turn now to act and walk with Him..
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Matthew 11:28-30)
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